"Life Lessons" by Tracey

“Surrender….sacrificing my life or suffering in order to change what needs to be changed.” Rick Warren I believe with age we become complacent in who we are and what we do.  To some, change can be that dirty little word you don’t want to hear.  But without change we don’t grow.  And I believe if we’re not growing, we’re dying.    I know that God put me on this earth to be more than what I am or could ever imagine.  My responsibility is to recognize my potential through God’s eyes.  But when God reveals things to me that our shameful to my character, do I turn a blind eye or do I really want to change?  It’s easy to point out the flaws in others, it takes the spotlight off of us.  But when we ask God to change our hearts and become more like Christ, are we really prepared for that change?   When God changes us, it’s a process, a long and sometimes brutal process.  I can say this because of the process I’m going through....

"Appearance is something absolute, but reality is not that way - everything is interdependent, not absolute."  -Dalai Lama It's been a while since I've written my thoughts down. For the last month or so, I've been lost. I don't know what to write, what to pray for or some days how to function. It's been said that if you're still alive then God has a plan to use you. I'm alive but I don't know what he could possibly use me for? There are so many areas in my life that I need to work on, to give over to him to change me. The last month, I've been ashamed of who I've become. I so desperately want to change but I'm so scared of how to begin or more scared of....will the change last? I finally realized that I sabotage relationships, good relationships. I push them away. I thought I was over my abandonment issues but I think there is something deeper that I'm not seeing. God, I need you to reveal my heart, my issues or what is t...